I wish that I could write some profound observation or words about my transition, but there is not any thing to write about. Since I transitioned life has not changed and that in itself maybe the most profound observation, I am still the same person, the same personality, still act and behave the same. The only difference that I can tell is the most people call me ma’am.
What has changed? I think that I am more relaxed and that I am doing more things then before I transitioned. All through life, I had about six friends that I knew since high school, now I have dozens. All through my life I never went out to dinner with any of them or to a play nor took a day trip, now I do that with my new friends. I never knew anyone who wasn’t from my hometown, now I have friend from coast to coast and not just on-line friends. For fifty years, whenever my brother called me, I answered my phone within four rings and then there was a change, he was getting my answering machine. Why? Because I was out doing things and he noticed the change.
I never took part in anything outside work, last year I helped organize a play at the Hartford Stage Company, and I helped organized a conference. This year I will also help organize a fashion show. I have friends who are actors, authors and photographers.
I’ve learned that most people are good.
However, I also learned that there are some bad people out there. I never before had a person come up to me and tell me that I am a sinner and that I am damn to go to hell. I never had anyone laugh at me to my face before. No one ever didn’t like me before or shunned me before. As a result, I think I am a little bit defensive whenever I hear laughter… now I think are they laughing at me?
I guess one of the changes that have taken place is the way that I perceive people, sadly now see the negative side of people.
To quote Charles Dickens, “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times; it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness; it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity; it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness; it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair; we had everything before us, we had nothing before us; we were all going directly to Heaven, we were all going the other way."